Bas yoon hi... Then & There

0220 Hrs, Feb 24th, 2015

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uske kisi khaas ki profile talaashni padti thi

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jab kabhi bas yoon hi uski tasveer dikh jaati hai,
tab tak uske dp per 350 likes aur 150 aww ho chuke hotey hain


- Kal shaam fir thaan liya ki, ab bol hi dunga kisi ka darr kisi ka nahi,
Bas yoon hi, fir khyal aa gaya ki jo ussey mujhse darr ho, uska kya ....

Introduction 2 d stranger a.k.a ME

I ain’t a failure, I just took a break from a long series of success but somehow the break got too extended

I ain’t introvert, am just tired of being extrovert and letting my extrovert-ness take over all my other virtues

I ain’t weak, am just fed up being strong and surviving peacefully, not hurting anyone

I ain’t rude, am humiliated enough for being humble to everyone whereas some people just don’t deserve to be treated that way

I ain’t solitary, am just not available for gatherings where people think they need to censor stuff for I being present there

I ain’t careless, am emotionally wrecked for caring to persons who never even gave a thought to my desires

I ain’t loud, I find myself unable to bear all the craziness prevailing around me silently

I ain’t a fool, I don’t wanna play the wise man among a bunch of insane brainless idiots

I ain’t strange, perhaps am weird in this lazy place which intentionally lives decades behind the outside world and then the natives talk of attitude like the preacher of the next generation

I ain’t furious, but it’s the way I should and would get to survive in this mean world

I ain’t cold, but I can’t be warm to those, possibly only joy in whose life is to make fuss on others back

I ain’t a liar, but I don’t wanna be the truth teller to all the liars,

I don’t hate u , am trying my level best to love u just a little lesser,

and I don’t even want u to love me, but at least don’t hate me for things I haven’t done or for what I appear to be but actually I ain’t

I ain’t giving excuses, but just the most nearly accurate and precise justifications for the way I am,

Anyways I like the way I am….

The Odyssey Is About To End

The Odyssey is about to end

I’ve got nothing to defend

No serious enmity , no one to offend

And precisely no close and true friend

But

The Odyssey is about to end

 

I never wanted to travel

Having reached so far

I started with a vision in my eyes

And ecstasy that no feeling stands at par

Still unaware of why I took off

And where exactly to land

But

the Odyssey is about to end

 

the life tried to teach at its best

and I permanently unavailable to appear for the big test

I gained nothing but experience

The only way to have survived here is ignorance

The very sequence of mysterious failures to comprehend

But

the Odyssey is about to end

 

 

there were people I really liked

there were people I wanted to be liked from

the people impressed and I admired them

the people lead well and I followed them

perhaps I committed some big mistakes

which they feel might take more then my lifetime to mend

the time is short

and

the Odyssey is about to end

 

the last couple of months

for which I’ve been waiting for like eternity

The ocean of emotions

The lack of expressions

The fears of rejection

So much to be accomplished

And

The very Odyssey is about to end 

aarzoo- my effort to forget the unforgettable and unacheivable

dhundh chantney lagi, 

aasma kuch nam sa hai

per khush hoon main

baat kuch aur khaas nahi 

shyad teri yaad ka gham

aaj zara kam sa hai......

mausam aur bhi suhaane aayenge

samaa kuch aur bhi rangeen honge

tujhe bhool  jaaun yeh toh mumkin nahi

per haan 

tujhe fir kabhi

paane ki ummeed ka bhram 

aaj zara kam sa hai......

aksar chai ki chuskian lete hue 

kaheen kho jaata hoon

shayad us duniya mein 

jahaan bas mein aur tu hai

maana mein hosh mein nahi

per yeh bhi sach hai

teri nigahon ka woh nasha 

aaj zara kam sa hai......

kaheen door tufaano mein

timtamatey diye si meri chahat 

na jaane kab bujh jaaye

aarzoo, armaan tamanna ka toh

khwab bhi kab ka chhod chala

jeetne ki ummeed to nahi

per haan

haar jaaney ka darr

aaj zara kam sa hai......

kuch halaat badalney mein

kuch zamaney ko badalney ki chah mein

mein khud hi be-inteha badal gaya

yoon toh jee sakta hoon 

yeh behroopiye si zindagi

kuch din ya shayad salon aur

per saare naqaab, sab mukhotey

utar jaane ka darr

aaj zara kam sa hai......

yoon toh dard kuch aur bhi

bardasht ker sakta hoon

per dil tootney ka dard sahne ka sahas

aaj zara kam sa hai......

avis